Still in a stunned

Today has been a day of agitation and a recklessly blur day for me.

I keep bumping into something accidentally or messing stuff up.

I hurt myself. I gave myself bruises and headaches.

I feel like I'm not alright.

how to say this in words?

I feel like i was in an abyss of ignorance, devoid of thinking and selfless judging.

making decisions yourself is hard !

I can't even decide what to eat for dinner everyday

can't decide which bed should i sleep tonight

can't decide what to wear.

Thank god I had my man beside me all the way, altho my stench of blur-ness was so overpowering that it reveled the frustration out of him.

But it's all good :) we're all fine.

main question, why was I so not myself ?

because....

DUM DUM DUMMMMMMMMMMMMMM !

i finally bought my camera . TODAY !!!

the Nikon D7000 !

is finally mine ???

I still can't believe i just bought it like that !

i'm finally using MY OWN dslr.

carrying MY OWN dslr

oh god. this is all too fast, I need to take a deep breath !

and OH GOOD LORD, college starts in a few more hours !

GOOD LORD !

it's all TOO FAST!